been a while...

hey guys, i know that i haven't been posting. i have been kind of lazy. okay well that is a lie because i have been cheating on you. i have been updating my other blog instead! i feel so dirty. please forgive me!
i'll buy you ice cream!
maybe...

anyway, i will have you know that i am still writing, singing and working on completing The List!! oh and don't worry, i am still the same person!

i am going to the movies with my girlfriends today! we are going to go see how to train your dragon! yeah, i know it's a little kid movie, but right now i don't care.

my fingers keep tripping up on each other, i keep getting ahead of myself!

i need to chill.

well this morning, around nine, i was awakened my a text message from my good friend Brett. he wanted me to come meet him and this guy he is trying to set me up with, at big boys! it's nine in the freaking morning, and you want me to come down to nasty big boys for breakfast??? i don't think so!!! so i told him i would do something tomorrow instead.

speaking of the guy that Brett is trying to hook me up with, his name is Dan and he is kind of cute. he is a senior where-as im a junior and he can drive and stuff!! i don't know if things will spark when i talk to him but, what the hell? why not give it a whirl?

anyway, i'm out! my stomach is growling, i am in serious need of food!

something like the buried life

i have created a list of all the things i want to do before i die! i will keep you updated on everything that happens as i try to finish the list.

hey guys i wrote this, tell me what you think...

Scene: boy and girl sitting on a bench, the wind barely blowing and they are sitting there exchanging silence for silence. They steal sidelong glances at each other hoping that the pain will go away. He reaches over and covers her hand with his; she drags in a sharp un-easy breath.

Girl: I let you in.

Boy: I know.

Girl: no you don’t know! You got to see the real me, and not very many people get a chance to see that. I told you everything and for the first time in… well forever I let someone in and I wasn’t afraid either, I actually wanted you in. I wanted you to see who I was.

Boy: we all belong with someone in the end. There is some one out there who will love us for who we are. I just wasn’t the guy.

Girl: but I love you.

Boy: I know, I can see it in your eyes, the way you look at me. And I hope you know that I love you too.

Girl: then why can’t we be together again?

Boy: because we aren’t meant for each other, we don’t match.

Girl: we aren’t meant for each other? Who is to say that we aren’t? I am sure that there is more than one guy I could easily be happy with.

Boy: I’m just not one of them.

Girl: [silence]

Boy: I know that I have hurt you, I know that I am hurting you but don’t be afraid of love because when it is real it is a hell of a lot scarier than this, don’t be afraid to show him who you really are. And I promise you that he is out there and he will love you more than I will ever be able to.

Scene: they look at each other one last time, soaking up each other’s scent, looking back at the memories, their hands kissing. The wind changes direction and they stand and walk their separate ways, but both heading towards an unknown world in a more terrifying state then they had left it.

alright so i am moving!

it's sad to let go but i am... just kidding, i promise to post here too! i can't guarantee that i will be able to post as much as i have but i will try to keep up with all this stuff.

cheesy!

hey guys, im sitting on my chair in the living room with glen beck on for background noise.

im having a difficult time writing this letter. as a part of TWLOHA street team i have to write a letter to someone (i don't know who) and i have tried twice and both times are depressing. im pretty sure the whole point of the letter is to change their perspective on life and not make them more sad and depressed...

anyway, if anyone lives in the area, go to the clutch cargos in pontiac on march 13 for the battle of the bands. i will be there cheering on my ex boyfriend/friend and his fellow band members.

okay so anyway, changing the subject, i don't know about you but i like cheesy-ness! so check out this website, lots of cheesy...

http://www.pickuplinesgalore.com/cheesy.html

they really are lame but whatever!

here are some examples from the website:

(hold out hand) Would you hold this for me while I go for a walk?

If I could reach out and hold a star for everytime you've made me smile, I'd hold the sky in the palm of my hand.

Hello, I'm doing a survey of what people think are the cheesiest pickup lines. So, do you pick 'Do you come here often?', 'What's your sign?', or 'Hello, I'm doing a survey of what people think are the cheesiest pickup lines.'? If you were a tear in my eye I would not cry for fear of losing you. You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.