alright, so it's been a really long time hasn't it?! haha yeah!
a lot of things have happened
first, i got a car!
second, i am so tan from going to the beach almost everyday
third, i think i'm in love with my best friend...
i don't know why though, i told myself that i wasn't allowed to fall for him because he would never love me more than the other girls. i told myself that i should watch out because everything that we did together never really means anything. he told me he didn't want a relationship, i have seen him go into rooms with other girls and shut the doors, he's told me how much he likes girls in general. but i can't seem to get him out of my mind, i mean don't get me wrong there are other guys that i like too but he is just... just... different. i can't really explain it... sadly.

so i started writing again. it kept me up to the early hours of the morning today. as i began writing, it hit me, there is no way that someone can sit down and write a novel that does not have some form of love in it. friendship is love, mothers love their daughters, fathers love their children, sisters love their sisters. there is just no way around the whole love concept! it's every where we go, it's the very air we breath! we can't live without it and even through all the murders and suicides and the wars, it still exists, that's what makes the human race so interesting!