Day 8!!

So i haven't written for a few days, so i'm sorry!! i have had a lot on my mind the last few days, it has been pretty chaotic here.

I am in choir, and i am participating in Solo and Ensemble this year, which i kind of don't want to do, well i kind of did at one point, but i felt obliged to do it because my private voice teacher wanted me to do it last year, but i didn't. so at the beginning of the school year she asked me and i hesitated but agreed to do it. i was confident, i thought i was alright and i was having fun. but now, everything is solo and ensemble this, solo and ensemble that. thursdays were the days that i looked forward to, the days were i went home, played on the computer or watched TV and then i went out and sang songs for a half an hour! but it's not fun anymore. i don't want to sing for a grade, i just want to do it because i like doing it.

on top of that, jake (my ex boyfriend, but don't worry that's not his real name), ignored me the other day even after i screamed his name!!! my friend yelled for him too, and he looked at her and then one of his friends came up to him and started to talk to him, and then he just walked away!!!!

so i was going to talk to him, because he thought i was mad at him, which i wasn't until he ignored me. sometimes i really think that he is just too popular for his own good. but i couldn't talk to him, because i was fighting back a thousand tears and i was loosing the battle.

im not mad at him, it's just everything isn't going the way it should.

i haven't written anything in... forever, and i am usually always writing something, even stupid songs and crap like that.

plus my voice teacher is up my back with all the S & E stuff.

i have lots of projects due, and i, being the procrastinator that i am, am stressing about it like crazy!!!

plus my friend has been trying to set me up with this guy, who talks way too much for me!!! and his jokes aren't that funny, and he has to use at least five swear words in every sentence that rolls out of his loud mouth!!! plus he's a jock - need i explain any further? i think not!

and on top of that, i can't seem to get rid of these planets on my face!!!!! they will not go away, and over night more seem to magically appear. and the really annoying part of all that is the fact that i am doing everything that my dermatologist has told me to use/do!

well i apologize, it's kind of a long read but, i had to get it all out there... somewhere...